x yah nak happy new year sgt la....
kan da sambut dlu, tahun baru dlm islam, da lah...
brape kali nak new year nie....huuhuhu

sms berjele, nak wish......
call x enti2 nak wish sahaja....hahhahaa
klaka la wey, seriously i dont like...
the end....
jahat kan ak.....hahahhhaa
sory......

kehilangan

something weird.....
ak da x brani mcm dulu, x bleh nak berdikari plak...
nak pg jj or tesco pon x brani sensorg
nak nek kete pon x confident, parah2....:(
need improvement......need it !!!!
independent women can walk alone
indepedent women can shop alone
yeah!!!!! i can do it.....

finding a way to move on....

actually life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated..
shoot the moon....
even if you miss, at least  you'll land among the star...
like people always talk, dream never end like a circle of the world
so, always move a head don't ever look back ....
shoot everything that u want, until the end of ur life....
^_^

alhamdulilah.....
im going back to normal.....
but still wondering something
missing something that always make me happy
and i keep asking to my self
y all this happen to me....
 there is no point to question all this thing
because, ALLAH know better than me.....
 the word stubborn always represent me...
the excuses also  synonym with me....

perlukan perubahan !!!!!!!.....
sekarang.......sekarang jugak.....

''Never compare your life story with those in the movies, because they are written by scriptwriters. Yours is written by Allah''

independent

why so hard to grab it??

im trying to be independent n i admit it, its too hard, its too pain n its not easy like i said before...

yes, i admit that alone is painful, and only people that have the strength can be alone

but, i have to be alone, i have make preparation to be alone..... i have to

because, preparation is important to me....

i have  my own reason to do that, nobody will understand....nobody

its hard, its pain.................................

'Worry Ends' by Sami Yusuf

Don’t be saddened by what you see
By all the lies and treachery
Life is cruel but don’t worry
In your heart lies the key
To unwind all the secrets
Of this life we see
When you feel you’ve lost it all
When you don’t know who’s your friend or foe
You wonder why you’re so alone
Worry ends when faith begins
Don’t be sad by what you see
It’s true life has its miseries
But one thing’s always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins
Don’t be saddened by what you see
I know life can be crazy
A showcase of hypocrisy
In the form of piety
It’s just one big mystery
For you and me
I found my peace deep within
Calling inside
Follow what you feel is right
So trust your heart go ahead
Don’t lose sight
Follow that voice deep inside
When you feel you’ve lost it all
When you don’t know who’s your friend or foe
You wonder what you’re so alone
Worry ends when faith begins
Don’t be sad by what you see
It’s true life has it’s miseries
But one thing’s always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins
If you’re weak it’s not a crime
Don’t you know it’s blessing in disguise
To know who’s honest and who spread lies
Worry ends when faith begins
Don’t be sad by what you see
It’s true life has it’s miseries
But one thing’s always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins

'Worry Ends' by Sami Yusuf

ya ALLAH please make me strong.....

release my burden

reduce my pain.....

help me to forget my past

n guide me to create new chapter...

i dont want to reapeted the mistake againt

the biggest mistake that i did before

i'm not strong enough, 

i;m tired, n i'm really want to back to normal.

thanks a lot to my friends

for the support

for the guide

for the help n 

for all sacrifaction that u did to me

i dont know how to pay all your effort

i'm praying that ALLAH will make ur life easy 

n step forward close to ALLAH......

ameen............

i need someone to talk to.......
every movement,
every single things that i did,
every single word that i speak
every single idea that i think....
nobody  consent about what im trying to do
nobody hear about  what im trying to voice out...
they only show their sympathy and laughing at me.....
that what im feel at this time....
only one word represent my heart " suffer always be my shadow"
and i still wonder, y this happen to me......

life is not easy like i thought before!!!!!!!
sadness trying to build a circle around me......
how unlucky i am.....
sometime the word " give up" cross to my mind......
what should i do???
what should i do???

suddenly loss the reasons of my life,
what happen???
what happen to me????
all question sound like crazy
but till now i repeatedly  wonder
y im still alive
eventhough until now i don't even know
the ability, the strength and the uniqueness of me
to stand up a line with others.......
i really loss right now....
i hope the moment i am facing will be  end as soon as i open my eyes tomorrow......

please!!!!!
im want someone to talk to......
dont make me stuck,
im run to every where to get the space
please!!!!!
i need some space to get back my line n point of life....
please!!!!!!
understand me,  understand what i did,
so, u would not been hurting again n again....
last word from me to you dear, im bagging u
to give me a little space to think n make decision.....
:) sincerely : rahiela ( endok) :)
               to: my little cute friend ever after :) iknow u always behind me, sory3 sgt....hehehehehe:P

la tahzan......:)

jika itu ketentuan mu aku redha ya ALLAH.
sudah ku buat sehabis mungkin untuk nya...
sudah ku tingkatkn usaha ku
jika itu jalan yg kau berikan ak redha
jika itu petunjuk yg kau berikan ak terima dgn hati terbuka
ak percaya segala ketentuan, ade seribu hikmah yang tersembunyi


ya Allah, dugaan mu itu membuat hambamu ini
kuat menempuh hari yg mendatang,
aku percaya,
setitis airmataku, adlah penebus dosa yg lalu
cuma 1 permintaan ku ya ALLAH,
kau kuatkn lah imanku, tabahkan lah hati ku
dan masukanlah ak dikalangan org2 yang solehah......

aku lah aku

mimpi ak ingin jadi bintang

yg dpat dipandg oleh segenap alam

yg dapat menjd pelita dlm gelapnya mlam

mimpi ak ingin jadi bulan

biar disebut sepanjang masa

biar cantik dipandang mata

mimpi aku ingin jadi burung

dapat bebas menggapai cita

dapt hidup aman gembira

mimpi ak ingin jadi bunga

dipetik jadikn hiasan

di dlm hati seorang jejaka pilihan

mimpi ku  ingin jadi siti khadijah

cintanya luhur pada rasulallah

sehingga terhembus nafas terakhir

mimpi ku juga ingin jadi sumayyah

keberanian nya ibarat api

setia nya tidak berbelah bagi

ya ALLAH  give me the strength.....
ya ALLAH give me the bright future....
ya ALLAH give me the  key to get  the answer of  all mysterious im facing.....

Kemudian,apabila engkau telah membulatkan tekad,maka bertawakallah kepada ALLAH. Sungguh,ALLAH mencintai orang yang bertawakal." (Ali 'Imran 3:ayat 159)
~cukuplah syurga sbg motivasi

redha ku kerana NYA
hidup dan mati ku kerana NYA


DARI:
sipencari hidayah.....

saya nak suami mcm abah :)

bertanggungjawab mcm abah...

ikhlas macm abh...

pemurah mcm abh...

kuat mcm abah...

tabah mcm abah...

kebiasaannya lelaki susah untuk mengeluarkan airmata, ak pernah tgk abh menangis sbb anak2 nya dalm kesusahan, terutama ak la yg slalu buat die sedih, ak pernah tgok die menangis bila adiknya sakit, ak pernah terdegr tangisannya diwktu mlm memohon doa supaya ank2 nya berada dlm golongn yg diberkati ALLAH....

sedihnya terpancar jika dia rasa gagal mmbuat anknya bhagia,
sedihnya terpancar bila ank2 lupa menjenguknya,
sedihnya terpancar jika ank2 dlm kesusahn.....

*kisah ku:
umurku 12 thun, ari tue kwn2 sebok tunjuk baju baru dieorg utk sukan neka tahunn. ak balik dr sekolah terus minta mak bila kan baju baru ari tu jugak sbb esok sukan neka akn bermula. padahal ak tau baju sukan ak masih cantik utk dipakai. abah cuma tgok je perangai ak, tahan je die tgok ak merengek... die x da bising2, x penah cubit @ sentuh ak seumur hidup ak. die sabar je tgok ak. dr petg sampai ke mlm ak nangis nak baju tue. dlm kul 10 abh, mak panggil ak, ajk g beli baju kat kedai, tp ngan syart beli yg paling murah je. ak x tau yg mase tue abh memng x de duit langsung.
dah lama lepas kejadian tue dlm umur ak belasan taun la, mak cite blik kat ak, mak ckp masa tue abh x de duit, mak soh abh pinjam wet kat org, untuk ak.....ya allah betapa besar pengorbann mak abah.....pernah ak hilang pedoman hidup, ak capai talipon n terus tlipon abh, ak cerita apa yg berlaku, abh menangis n terus bg kata2 yg hidupkan ak semula.
abah la segla galanya bg ak.
sy ada abah yg perfect dimata n dijiwa saya.....
alhamdulilah, syukur pd ALLAH.
saaaaayyyyyyaaaaaannnnggggg  AAABBBAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!
anda sayang abah anda??????

Dalam senyuman Terselit tangisan ( khas buat rahiela:P)

slalu org ckp dont judge a book by its cover kan2??
sesetengah org akn ckp kehidupan memeritkan n sesetegh lg ckp kehidupan lah suatu masa yg awesome.
its depend to individual to use their life valuable. camne la, point cik turtle ialah hidup kat dunia sementara jer penilaian kehidupan kita adalah disaat kematian di depan mata, mcm final exam, jika gagal, maka gagal la hidup kita. dugaan yg ALLAH bg kadang2 x tertanggung kan? kadg2 juga kite rasa macm x adil. nape lah ak dpt cubaan mcm nie sedangkn org len senang lenang je. cube istigfar cikit!!!!! ALLAH lebih tau kite nie sapa, dari kite tau siapa kite. ALLAH kn pencipta kita, bykan la beristigfar, cik turtle x pandai dlm bab2 agama nie, tp stakt nak nasihat tue bleh je....
ok...proceed lg, cik turtle penah buat keputusan bodoh satu mase dlu, yg menyebbkan ramai org yg cik turtle sayangi mengeluarkan airmata. keputusan tue dibuat tanpa beralaskan iman didada tanpa diiring akal yg waras, n sampai sekarang masih terngiyang2 di ingatan kenapa disebbkan bende remeh, ak sanggup kehilangan agama. dari kejadian tue cik turtle blaja memahami apa itu kehidupan , apa erti persahabatn apa erti pengorbann. kejadian tue juga adalah satu anjakan paradigma utk cik turtle lebih matang. pesan cik turtle percaya 1 je, segala kejadian ada hikmahnya, walaupon pd sudut pandg seseorg ianya sukar utk dilalui tp setelh kite melaluinya, akn terungkai segala pemasaalahn.
 keperitan membawa kejayaan
kan..kan....kan....
hehehehheehe.........

the biggest mistake that i've always  do is hurting someone that i love ....
because i will smile when people around me happy
im be happy as they gets their happiness
i am sad when they are crying
so, dont trying hard to make me laugh
because only with your smile
my heart full with Roses,
my body fill like flying
n u can see the biggest smile of me....
i love all people around me
thanks a lot because exist in the space of my life
make my journey colourful
may be i am not important in your life
but believe me, u are the important part of my life
without u, my journey might not complete
ALLAH have reason why u know me
i am not perfect, but im try to be perfect
because of u..........
thanks a lot.....may ALLAH bless all of u.....
loveeeee u so much all my friend...:)

big smile for me :))

assalamualaikom everybody!!!!
hahhahaahah macm byk fan je kan.....
ari nie bersyukur sgt pd tuhan pencipta alam bcoz give me the biggest smile....hehehheehe
happy la kan sbb mak cikturtle dtg dr jauh bawk ketupat, serunding ayam goreng n sambal sedap sgt2.....
rindu sgt ngn mak n abh tp cume mak je leh dtg abh x dpt huhuhu.....
dapt cium peluk mak dah cukup tuk cikturtle, kami jln2 1 mlaka, g makan pizza hut, g shopping2. mak cik turtle blikan telekung baru, rase excited nak sembahyang dgn telekung baru...hehhehhee
cik turtle rasa syukur dpt mak mcmtue, lengkap die lah kawn, dielah teman, die lah ibu die lah penghibur dikala duke, cik turtle x penah rase sedih bersama die, x penah nampak die penat layan kerenah cik turtle, die x penah mengeluh jaga cik turtle, die terlalu sempurna bg kami sekeluarga, hanya satu pinta kami ya ALLAH jgn kau ambil die disaat kami belum sedia, jgn kau ambil die disaat kami amat memerlukan nya dan berikan kesihatn yg baik, kekuatan , hukumlah kami jika kami menyakiti hati nya, sesungguhnya kami amt menyanyanginya, kami amat menyanjungnya dan kami meletaknnya jauh lebih tinggi selepas rasulluallah. mak u make me smile eventhough im struggling to survive, mak u make me strong to face the reality, mak u make my future bright. thanks for all, mak i loooovvveeee u so much .....sayang mak
peluk cium dr:
ila......

" Kita tidak dapat apa yang kita pinta kerana apa yang kita dapat itu lagi jauh lebih baik dari apa yang kita minta. Allah Maha Mengetahui!:) Lailassa'adah............ "

fahami quote kat ats nie elok2, quote nie bukn shaja utk menyenangkan jiwa kita yg kesdihn tp gak utk kite lebih menghargai diri kita, bersyukur ats ape yg dkurnikan oleh nya dan lebih menyanyangi diri kita, walau bagaimana rupaparas yg kita miliki...

kawn cik turtle ade ckp dlu2 kalau kita nak org len syg kite, syangi diri anda dlu sbb kalau kite x syg diri kite rase2 layk ke org len nak sayang i kite??

berbalik dr quote kat ats, jenuh cik turtle meminta, jenuh cik turtle merayu, kadg2 rase putus asa tue timbul tenggalm mcm ikan jer.....huhuhuhu. dr kecik smapai la sebesr nie cik turtle x henti diejek, dicaci di buat bhn gurau, alaaaah tue sume dah mcm maknn cik tutle ari2 dah....bukan ape la,  cik turtle nak ckp wahai mahluk2 ciptaan allah berhenti menyakiti hati org len, berhenti menjatuhkan maruah org len dan byk2 la bersyukur ats ape yg ade, kadg2 perckpn anda bleh menjatuhkn confident sesetgh org yg x sanggup mendengarnya.

cik turtle cume leh sabr jer dgn dieorg nie, bukn cik turtle x berusaha utk memilki apa yg cik turtle idam kan, bak kata org " berat mata memandng berat lg bahu memikul " tp da bukn rezki kan dah ALLAH blom izinkn kite memilikiny nak wat camne, cik turtle cume nak ingtkn roda hidup nie berputar jd ape yg kita wat kat org mungkin akn jd kat diri kite...yang penting REDHA dan SYUKUR =KURANG STRESS..:)........haaaaaa kan sronok idup tanpa stresss

i like music muuuuccchhhh!!!!!!!

assalamualikum..........

cik turtle nak cite pasal bende yg cik turtle idam2 kan dari kecik g, cetgok gmba2 kat atas tue, best nye main gitar n piano nie, kalau cik turtle tau main bende nie sume mesti sronok kan??

kalau zamn2 cik turtle dlu, budk2 yg pandai main gitar n piano nie ank2 org kaya je, yg dok kat bndr2, yg elite2 gtu.....kat kg mcm cik turtle nie tau ape jer, men batu seremban, ting2 tau laaaaa.....

cik turtle nie memng minat music2 nie, dlu kalau cikgu tnye "apakah cita2 kamoooo" cik turtle mesti ckp pemain music la, penagarh filem la, ala yg berkaitn ngan industry hiburn  gitu.......

tp x lah cik turtle ckp nak jd artis @ pelakon....hahahhaahah, cik turtle tau nak ukur baju kat bdn sendiri okeyyyy...

cik turtle suke nyanyi walaupon suara cik turtle x merdu, bersajak, bersyair dn berpantun....tp dsbbkn x de galakn n sokongn impian terkubur dgn angan2 jer sampai la skung nie umo da 21 ... dlu ade gak azam nak men gitar, ciap cari cikgu gtar g kat bandr melaka, mase tue tekad memng tinggi nak men, last2 terkubur gaaakkkk, disebbkn x dpt nak manage mase blaja.....tue la org ckp " angan2 taik lembu". sekarg nie impian nak men instrument tue mmbuak lg, alaaaa sebenarnya sejak kemunculn najwalatif tue, rase nak bli je gitar, tp duit x de plak, buku gitar da bli da kat umah....mcmane nie nak bli x nak??????? nak teruskn x nak?????  masih buntuuu :(.....nie teringin sangt nak blaja, tooooloooongggggg!!!!!!!!! bg sy 1 kali lg peluang....huuhuhuhu

KALAU CINTA VERSES CHIPMUNK

Haaaaaaa, da tgok vedio nie, apa pndapt anda tntang lagu nie????
cik turtle x tau la knape eak cikturtle suke sgt lagu nie, mase keje2 dlu stiap ari ade lagu nie kat radio, nya allah cik turtle nak je soh radio tue ulang balik....hehehehee
sronok lagu nie, kalau btul2 terjadi kat idop cik turtle alangkah best nyer...hahahhaahaa da start la cik turtle berangan nie.....yg cik turtle upload nie, versi chipmunk cik turtle rase lagi best.....
nak dijadikn cite ade cite kat tv3 tue ana lu'lu, anda sume ade tgok x???? sronok cite tue, sbnarnye bukn cite nye, tp lagu tema nya syooookkkkk banget deeee....hehehheheee
kalau anda hayati liriknye, kan indah2 gtu, x mcm lg len2 tue, slalunye sedih2 je, kekasih yg ditingglkan lah, kematian la, patah atie dn mcm2 lg.....kan menjadikan ati kite jd sedih...hahahhahaaa...
enjoy the show ea...kih2

snorkeling

dgn erti kata len, menyelam dipermukaan laut, sblom nie cik turtle cume dgor je org ckp, g snorkeling la, scuba diving la......ape bende tue???? hahahahaaha, kalot noooo
maklum la kurg ilmu didada, dah lama2 ckit cik tau la ape itu snorkeling nie, tp x terfikir la boleh mencubenye, maklum la bukn ade kt batu pahat nie.....hahahaha, nak dibuat cite, bleh ke cik turtle nie menyellam, ehhhh x de confident la cik turtle nak buat sume tue, paham2 je la kan,,.... ; D
by the way, ceh omputih masok nie, kalau da rezki nak buat camne, baru2 nie ade la ticket murah ke sabh, jd cik turtle pon pg la, kate org kalau g sabh x sah kalau x pg pulau manukan.... ehhhhh sronok tempat nye. nak tgok.....

nak pg pulau nie kene nak bot ... dlm 25 minute perjlnn la dr jeti, best sgt, tgk lautan terbentg, keindahn alam, seronok sgt.

ce tgok cik turtle dlm bot nie...hahhahaahaa kalooot noooo.... malu je

ni plak aktiviti cik turtle kat pulau ....hahhahhaahah jgn gelak k......;D

tgok la tue cik turtle mandi x igt dunie, blik2 demm panas x ley bngun, tp dek oiii puas sgt, tgok ciptaan allah kat dlm air nie cantik2 dik, rugi x snorkeling yer........

wassalam dr cik turtle....hehheeehe

kure-kure????

cik turtle nak cite ckit pasal kwn cik turtle slame lebey kurg 1 setgh la idop ngan cik turtle nie. name die kiki n lala. comel sgt satu berjalur menegak, satu lg corak berpusar. kure2 nie kakak yg bg mase blaja kat srwk dulu, alaaa tuk jd kwn kat blik. stiap kali cik turtle blik klasss mule la bising dieorg brgerk2 dlm rumah die. dua arie skali cik turtle mandikan die, dieorg nie berbau ckit, tp x pe la, kerna syg ak turut kan....hehehehehe
cik turtle pon x tau nape cik turtle syg sgt kat kure2 nie. die nie cute sgt yg penting x de bulu, cik turtle nie x suke bulu, geli ckit.....
kalau cuti sem cik turtle soh uncle jage, sbb takot kalau bwk dieorg nie kene byr ticket flight lebh plak hhahahaaha..... lame la jugak x jumpe dieorg dlm sebulan lebey gtu. pastu naik cuti sem tgok dierorg da ade perubhn. corak da berubh- ubah, da besa ckit.....
nak dibuat cite nie, satu ari nie cik turtle cbok sgt maklum la student katekan, terabai la c kiki n lala nie, kat luar jendela, ari tue plak cuaca terik, cik turtle x prasan sgt,,,, sungguh cik turtle x prasan...
lepas magrib gtu, cik turtle rase x sedp ati, pastu teringat plak c kiki n lala kat luar tingkap, cik turtle yg tgah kat kedai mkn trus la balik billik. tgok2 kiki n lala da x de, sedih sgt cik turtle mase tue......
ciap kol kwn2, kol cousin la.....nak nyatekan betape sedihnye cik turtle mase tue.....
cik turtle satu mlm x tido bacekan yasin tuk dieorg, menyesal tue menebal dlm diri.....

hahhahhahaaa.....klaka plak cik turtle mase tue, skung nie lain plak, cik turtle da x bela dah kure2 sbb cik turtle tau aquarium bukn tmpat die, die pon nak bebas cam manusie kan soooo....pade pencinta alam kononnye lepaskan lah binatg2 peliharaan anda sbb byngkan kalau kite dok dlm sangkar mcmane eak...renung2 kan...wasssalaam

mukaddimah

assalamualaikum......
hye, slamat dtg ke blog sy yg x seberape nie....
ank ke-5 dr 5 adik beradik, ank bongsu la kan...hahhahaa...
nie mak abah sy yg sy sanjungi, cintai dan kasihi

yg nie plak keseluruhan family sy. ade abg, kakak, ank sedara dan nenek ..hehehheehehe, mcm besa je kan, memang besa pon... cetgok betul2 sape yg paling chubby, sy lah tue..... x kesah la org nak ckp ape, yg penting sy happy dgn ape yg sy ade, happy dgn org2 sekeliling sy. cube menerima hakikat tu lebih baik dr mempertikai kejadiannye kan....hehehhehehee...

cube kite renung2 sejenak, Allah S.W.T cipta semua mahluk kat dunia ni x sempurna ( omputih ckp imperfect). jgnlah terlalu berbangga dgn ape yg kite ade, jgn pula kita menangisi ketidaksempurnaan yg kita miliki. jd lah seseorg yg bersederhana. sy suke org mcm nie........
ehhh berceramah plak.......hehhehehee
tue je buat mase nie, .....wassalam